Tuesday, October 24, 2006

SCREWED UP BODY CLOCK... :S

SIANZ... slp at 3+ yet still wake up at 8... -_- oh well didnt go out today cos dad was elbowed in the eye by my sis while sleeping... sent him to NUH... yeah so damn sian la... watch my whole stack of tapes of csi, house, supernatural, numbers etc... damn sian ah!!! go online oso nobody around... onli got sc online cos she oso woke up early to meet with her insurance agent or something... so we played some solitaire... lol long time havent played tt sia... hahaha won 2-1 as usual... =X hahaha yeah den started to rain... shiok! had a power nap n a D.I.Y. facial... alot of zits le... must be all that choc sia... hahaha n everyone seems to be having some choc craving now... lol oh wells... booking in soon... damn sian to have my weekend burnt in tekong... kns... oh n selamat hari raya to all esp siti n md (ming de) WAHAHAHA!


Super-strong emotions like jealousy don't sit well with you, but you may experience a wave of it today. Just remember that this, like all feelings, is ultimately temporary. Watch it come and go. Don't overreact.

Emotionally, you should be feeling more independent today ... you are heading toward a major turning point where you can just let go of old grudges and move beyond the fear of not being a perfect person. You are making the best choices you can, and you should not dwell on missteps you have made. Your personal dramas will be taking a back seat to other, more challenging projects or activities. Focus more on those today and you will forget about insecurities.

You can get so worried about what you don't have that you forget how much there is in your life, especially when it comes to love. Concentrate on the abundance in your life, not what you perceive of as lacking.

DRINKING HABBITS DIE HARD... :P

Things are slowing down a bit in your life, and you are going to have some time to play with later today. This is a great time to double-check your resources ... make time today to balance your checkbook, check out the status of your retirement account (or start your retirement account!), and investigate that bank that you've been thinking of switching to. Maintaining your money takes effort, and it is effort that always pays off -- literally.

LOL like that is so wierd cos today i went to POSB n opened a "save as you earn" account... its basically an account whereby u cant touch the money for 2 yrs and each month it will take a fixed amount u specified and keep it in the account. yeah so i did a $500 per month thing so that i can use it for my living expenses overseas when i go further my studies. yeah so its quite a good scheme esp since u cant touch the money for 2 yrs which is like just nice ns is over by then... hehe yeah so then spent the rest of the day watchin csi, house, numbers, supernatural etc... then went to the civil servant club at bukit batok for dinner at a wine bar... really nice place n good food too n the price is quite ok given the wine and chocs for dessert... wahahaha im seriously turning into a chocoholic... my fridge has sooooo much choc! hahaha its crazy...

went to clementi n met up with sc to go 7-11 go buy drinks... round 2 for me thou... hehe had 2 glasses of wine during dinner... :P yeah then took a ride in bh's car to west coast park n just hang around... literally... lol cos we played that swing thingy n i got stuck in the middle... lol yeah but while jumping off i think my finger got caught in the chain n now its like swollen... :S sianz... n its my middle finger somemore... must be god's way of punishing me for pointing the middle finger too much le... WAHAHAHA! walked about n chatted awhile too... kao... still got small kids playing at 11+ lor... they should be at home playing dota or something man! wahahaha yeah n den drank 2 bottles of alcohol... 1 jack daniels n another bottle of vodka raspberry picked by sc... tastes like cough medicine sia... BLEAH! hahaha anyways i didnt really have any occasion in mind to go drinking but i think i noe y sc wanted to... haha she sounded damn pissed abt work... stressed so must go drink most probably... :P

went to marine parade n played some pool... damn rusty liao sia... hahahaha n almost got my head knocked by the cue ball... =X wahahaha dun ask... i think i may need to get myself a lucky clover soon... =X=X=X hahaha

Sunday, October 22, 2006

DOA!!!

DOA!!! hahaha yeah so anyways went to have lunch with jz, danny, heman, nel n jay... 3 botaks n 3 erm... guys with more hair than botaks... :P yeah so talked lotsa crap abt army etc... filled them in with what to expect in bmt n wat i went thru so far in ocs... haha den walked over to ps where danny n i left cos we didnt feel like playing dota... so headed back to heeren n did some window shopping... walked over to taka n got myself some gelato n danny got himself $10 worth of donuts... siao one... den walked back to ps... we r crazy one... but the whole of orchard like so few ppl... as if its a weekday... lol

danny left to meet his gf n i went to meet up with sc n bh to go watch doa... wahahaha dunno y sc just wanna tag along n watch doa... all babes nia... no cute gay guys that she has been fantasising =X yeah lotsa lotsa babes in the movie... typical guys only show... lol bikini fest just like yesterday! wahahaha! yeah den went to ljs for a drink n then went to waraku for dinner with my family... my dad came back from europe le! hahaha loaded with chocs n bought me a ck perfume! hahaha as if i'll have the chance to use it... LOL im still starting on my bottle of versace blue jeans sia... hahaha neways went to beach rd to grab some stuff for the upcomin field camp which im gonna have my weekend burnt in tekong... 4d3n in tekong is gonna be damn sian... esp over the weekend... SOB SOB! nvm la... got tmr n tues to chill out... hehe but dun think anyone will be free... or have the cash to go out le =X haha yeah so now im watchin tv for the 1st time in many many weeks... some korean show on some tutor shit... haha funny stuff...

There is good news today regarding one of your more particularly fuzzy frustrations. Things are finally starting to come into focus ... so do yourself a big favor and accelerate the formation of this clear picture by stepping back and giving yourself some distance. You may have the drive to tackle it head on, and you probably have the energy to back it up; but right now, you need to study it from a distance before you can act on it effectively.

Taking a big step back really gives you a much-needed sense of perspective when it comes to the dating scene. You see exactly where it is you came from, and you'll be able to decide where you want to go.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

SENTOSA!!!

WOOHOO!!! booking out for 5 days!!! till tues 2000hrs... :P yeah so went to harbourfront to buy some stuff for the picnic... onli the 6 of us came... the rest of the class not free... -_- oh wells... so me, bh, cl, yy, sc n sq went to sentosa for a picnic... yeah so went to palawan beach den walked over to the luge to play the go cart! omg SO FUN! hahaha n the skyride was really nice... great view but stupid haze as usual... ahahaha yeah so i raced down like a madman... wahahaha super pro racing skills... even though there were lotsa roadhogs... i was taking the turns at high speeds till only 3 of my wheels were on the road... wahahaha! yeah so i played it 3 times! i so so so wanna go play it again... :D hahaha took lotsa pics too! but onli sq brought her cam so i'll upload the pics once i get them... too bad my cam is with my dad in europe... if not i'll prolly take a video of me going down like a madman! wahahaha!

hahaha so then went to siloso beach for the 2nd half of the picnic... swam over to the little island den swam back... had a tan, started a sandball fight which i ended up eating several mouthfulls of sand all tks to sc... haha but bombarded them with artililary shellings of sand in return :P den got my ass filled with sand... damn tt cl... hahaha n bh... hahaha yeah then changed and went over to vivo city... walao... so many ppl there lor... worse than orchard rd sia... so had carls junior for dinner den walked about window shopping... hahaha so here we have 2 extreme ends... me being loaded and nothing in mind to shop and sc being broke and still wanna shop... lol! bumped into esther n her musical friends at gv... haha tt sounds funny... esther n her musical friends... ah wadever... never really expected to see her there but then again like the whole of singapore is at vivo city... LOL den went to candy empire! OMG!!! im like in heaven! hahahaha bought some kinder bueno choc... tastes great... but the wonka whipple scrumptious caramel delight i bought was FANTASTIC!!!!! omg... i gotta get more tmr! LOL hahaha den went to ps n sat at starbucks n had iced choc n chatted awhile then went home


The events around you today will have a life of their own, and trying to shape them into a better form is going to be a big waste of your time -- so don't even try. Do not worry about being labeled a quitter -- there is a big difference between giving up and resigning yourself to accept things as they are, and you know it. Life is too short to tackle battles that are pointless. So just ride out the day, focusing on the things that you can control -- like your sunny disposition.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

ME-DAY

YEAH... its me day today... not planned but being in ocs taught me to expect the unexpected... so when i was walking out, i was msged by bh saying mom sc fell sick... so cant go le... so might as well cancel it la... yeah so it seems like mom has headache n bodyache... sounds like pms! =X hahaha jkjk

yeah so i walked orchard from heeren up to ps for a nice slow lunch at bk... something which i have not have the luxury of doing in camp... lol den back to taka den wisma den wheelock den lido den wheelock den home... far rite? hahaha no kick sia... yeah so spent the day thinking and reflecting on stuff... good thing i got in-bud earphones... not much noise other than the soothing music on my nano that im playing... FFX soundtrack rocks man... hahaha great for relaxing and other stuff... just listen to this song called "zanarkland" yeah its really really nice... haha long time since i played it on the piano le... think later i'll practice it for awhile... haha yeah so think i came up with a plan le... just do it! hahaha you only live once... just go for it lor...

yeah walked around window shopping... seeing running shoes... think im starting to get into the running culture... hahaha den walked into borders and browsed thru some books... something that i find intresting... about the character of pisces... my horoscpoe sign la... says they are romantic ppl and are passive... lol den they have an overactive imagination... wahahaha quite true in my case hor? lol

oh well den went to wheelock to buy my dad a bday prezzie at the nike gift shop... 12 golf balls... haha since he loves golf ma... den came back n did a d.i.y. facial and some massage... power nap and now chatting n bloggin till bookin later at 9... hope this week i dun tio any extras... :S CHOI! haha yeah so im now listening to the new eVonne hsu cd... quite nice songs inside but its protected! sianz cant rip it to my nano... OH did u guys see the new nano and shuffle! omg... shuffle looks CHIO! hahaha im soooo gonna get it sia... :P anyone wanna get it too? lol

SOME INTRESTING STUFF FROM ASTROLOGY.COM yeah should sign up for their daily horoscope la... seems quite alrite la... well to me perhaps... yeah so the 1st one is my daily love tarot, my daily tarot, my daily romantic horoscope n lastly my weekly romantic horoscope for next week... haha so here it goes:

The Knave of Swords card suggests that you should try to clear your to-do list. Make time for witty chats or conversation. Reminisce or talk out issues that might need to be resolved and be clear about what you want. Put promises, itineraries or plans in writing to avoid misunderstandings later on. It may not be romantic, but being fair and practical in this case can help alleviate suspicions and avoid mind games. SO TRUE! HAHAHA MIND GAMES... LOL

The Eight of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in denial or blocking. 'Don't even go there.' I will not let myself be limited, paralyzed, held hostage or alienated by fear or fantasy that relies on exploitive emotional rescue, sacrifice of truth, or victimization. I will not be a prisoner to my own perceptions or expectations. Why did Cinderella stay? Do I want to be right or alone? Why have I placed a mental gag order on my own suffering or thinking? I am empowered to question or endure by virtue of my own self-worth because there is no honor in sacrificing my self to victimhood.

Before you get what you deserve in this life, you have to be willing to visualize it. If love hasn't worked out the way you thought it would, ask yourself what you really want. Find a creative way to express it.

Doing something healthy on Monday makes you feel all-around sexier, boosting that confidence. It's the kind of excellent energy you can use from Tuesday through Thursday, when the best romantic agenda is no agenda at all -- other than being yourself and letting your soul shine. Plenty of time to analyze it all later -- like this weekend, when you'll be given choices and the opportunity to point your love life in a lovely direction. Don't just stand there -- pick your path, and who you want with you on it.

LIFE CAN BE SO SCREWED UP... :S

SIGH... just when i forced myself to think its over, now theres a glimmer of hope... should i go for it and either have a happy-ever-after ending or prolly end up getting hurt and experience the same kinda feeling when i forced myself to think its over... people say no pain no gain but this is one pain i never ever wanna experience again. but then again should i just sit back and dont go for it? let this one pass right by without even trying? its either go or dont go... how? n i have no idea why im blogging so early in the morning in camp... maybe cos ive been attacked by mozzies all night, cant sleep on my own bed, booking out in like less than 3 hrs and the fact that my mind starts to play mind games on myself... haiz... :S

Saturday, October 14, 2006

SATURDAY CDS DUTY... FUCKED UP!!!

FUCKED UP!!! SO FUCKED UP!!! hahaha but here i am blogging in camp AGAIN! O_O yeah so theres 2 ppl on duty la its the cdo and cds tts me... so we r taking 2 hrs shift by left... =X yeah so anyways its kinda slack on weekends la... nobody here to fuck us around... just told to decorate the duty room... hahaha which was done in like 1hr plus... bad part is having my 1/2 a sat burnt... n having to stay in smart 4 all day long till tmr 8am... den BOOKOUT! den bookin at 2100... SIANZ!!! __ hahaha but its ok la... tmr got plans for lunch meeting ma... den next week got fri till tue off provided i dun tio extra for no fucking lame reason... haha =X yeah well suck thumb la... anyways its been a great week for me la... all until now but im keeping my spirits high la... bo pian one... lan lan suck thumb n do lor... yeah so i guess i thought i solved a problem le... but now i think it resurfaced... nvm la just play by ear ba hor? hahaha tts my way of doing things when i dun have a plan in mind... :P okies time for a power nap! hahaha catch up on long lost sleep... life as a cadet is always sleepy always tired and always busy doing something... almost learnt the art of open eyed sleeping for damn long... now can onli last for like 30 odd secs... =X hahaha k la power nap time! or like wad "mom" likes to call it "beauty sleep" :P

Friday, October 13, 2006

IM BLOGGING IN CAMP! LOL

HAHA!!! yes its true! im blogging in camp right as of now! hahaha yeah so its kinda a damn hectic week for us... weapons test and tsr test... all scored pretty well la... haha den had shooting for SAR21 and SAW... the night shoot was damn fun cos we played with the night vision goggles hahaha look like splinter cell sia... :P yep so im now in camp but tmr i got duty... so my sat is burnt... can onli bookout on sun morn... but its ok la i think its gonna be an experience la... anyways everyone has to do it sooner or later better be now rite? haha quoted from mom sc... :P yep so ive kinda sorted out my thoughts le... i think i can go thru ocs on my own la... dun really need to confide in anyone... theres always my mom who i can talk to n i have been doing so for the past week or of course theres my other "mom" who i can sorta confide in too... =X haha yeah so its quite fun here in ocs... experience of a lifetime ba... yeah so anyways this sunday we r gonna have a lunch meeting up session at cine @ 12 la... n oso discuss abt the pub hol where we wanna go etc... i got the mon off! i cant believe it sia!!! hahaha k la i think its abt time to rest even though the lights out timing is at 2300... extended wor... :P k goodnite ppl! see u guys on sun ba!

Sunday, October 08, 2006

WORLD TRADE CENTRE

YEAH so i slept at 4am n woke up at 8... siao man... den went to bugis to do some stuff... bai bai abit too... den went to ps... did some shopping too haha den met up with soo chan n did some catching up... talked quite abit too huh... even had plans to go m'sia during the upcoming pub hols... lol den met up with bh n yy to go watch wtc at the new cathay... quite a slow movie... kinda boring too... yawnz... haha

The Death card suggests that when love goes wrong, nothing goes right. Whether you are avoiding an inevitable break-up, are in a rut or are simply trying to deny issues that are standing in the way of romantic happiness, you know what this means. You may miss opportunities or even hit all the red lights when you are running late. This could be a sign that something's got to give in order for you to move on to the next chapter in your relationship -- or even beyond that. Continued resistance may be futile.

yeah so im still quite uncertain abt how i feel... dunno if i should just keep it this way so tt i got more time for myself n not so much time to commit to other stuff but on the other side... theres someone to confide in on a much deeper lvl... so im still quite uncertain to go or not to go for it... haiz... maybe i should just let this one go though i spent quite abit of effort reeling it in... =X oh wells... we'll see how it goes... n it did say something's got to give in order for me to move on rite? haix...

oh well now gonna go book in le... see u all next week! hahaha

SP MUSICAL!!!

HAHAHA slp till 12 this morn... shiok sia... lol den went to vivo city to take a look... did some shopping... bought an arm wallet and the goodyear adidas shoes... hehe shiok sia! ahaha den went to have dinner... den went to NUS UCC for the SP musical... nice place to be... haha den was shown my seat... haha so near the front sia... 5th row... aisle seat somemore... hahaha yeah so it was actually a nice musical to my surprise... ;X but of course the cast spent like 6 months on it la... so it had to be good... lol yep so esther wasnt playing the main role la... just the backups... haha but still it was nice to watch la... n she bought this really nice dress tt she showed me... hahaha look so pretty in it wor... :X hahaha yeah so den after the show we sorta met... kinda shagged still but managed to give her the ear rings... though i didnt really have the balls to say more nor probe deeper... :S hahaha oh well i guess im just too little, too late haha (sings to jojo's too little too, late tune haha) dunno la... perhaps im thinking too much into it... or maybe its already a done deal... i dunno... i'll just be contented on maintaining a good friendship... yeah so anyways went to holland v with jef n sp... had haagen dazz... yummy! haha den had a bottle of corona... not much to make me drunk la... just to drink for the sake of drinking... yeah so talked lotsa crap den went home... prolly just gonna slp this one away... not gonna drink myself wasted like the last one... hahaha must slp well for next week's hell week... :X

If you feel like you've been giving more than you've been getting in an old relationship, you just may be right. But before you approach your friend with these suspicions, consider the significant value this relationship has in your life. Is this issue a deal-breaker? These extra sacrifices might be temporary, and if you make a big issue out of them, you might be causing more drama than you need in your life right now. Try to hold your tongue and keep the peace.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

MY DAILY TAROT & HOROSCOPE... :(

The Devil card suggests that my alter ego today is the Risk-Taker, whose superpower lies in my laughing in the face of limitations, possibly guided by my obsessions. I will watch my step today and know that I need to take responsibility for my actions -- no one can shoulder that burden for me. 'I know it's wrong, but it feels so right.' My obsessions are in control and I can't help myself -- I'm addicted to love. But you just may be hurting the one you love. So either go with it, or exercise self-control and avoid those temptations that may come back to haunt you. :(

The Seven of Pentacles card reversed suggests that you've done your duty. You may have been stuck in the dead-end role of observer or patient nurturer long enough, tending to everyone else but yourself. Now is the time to make your move or collect the fruits of your labor before opportunity dries up. Avoid a tendency to go with the quick fix -- in the end, it will require more constant attention due to its shallow roots while returning little tangible reward for your efforts. With timing, vision and work, this standoff could become a milestone, wherein you begin to make major adjustments or changes to the path of your love life, get back in the game or come out of a slump, learn from mistakes or notice and appreciate what has been before you all along, while letting nature take its course.

Nothing helps a broken heart more than taking action. Write it out, go for a long walk or put up those shelves around your house. You'll find at the end of it that your emotions weren't permanently broken, just bruised. :(

1ST OCS BOOKOUT!!!!

OMFG!!! im finally out! 3 weeks of hell... mentally, physically and emotionally torturing...

haha yeah so we did lotsa shit in camp... like we got turnout at 4am to go for the confidence jump off the 5m high diving platform wearing long 4 then climed up the ocs tower 265 steps... den we played with the MOPP 4 suit which is for chemical defence. damn uncomfortable... den wear it with the gas mask and went into a gas chamber filled with tear gas. then we had to do some exercises inside to make sure we donned the suit properly. then we also had to take off our mask n shout out our name n ic no before we can exit. walao now i noe the power of tear gas.... not funny sia. hahaha yeah

every morning 5bx with run... den pt lesson very wierd one... got "power run" which is run up the hill in 40 sec, interval training 1 round 1:40 n now getting lesser, sbo staircase run... 10 sets of 10 pushups with the push up bar then followed by 10 sets of 6 pullups... omg...my arms r JELLY!!! hahaha yeah well theres lots more but damn lazy to put here la

finally can use the com le... hahaha theres INTERNET TOO!!! woohoo!!! hahaha yeah the whole place is like a hostel la... 2 man bunk, com, kitchenette etc... hahaha lectures too! almost like back to school...


mentally torturing comes when we got lack of slp and lotsa lectres... den when the training gets really tough, the mind starts to wonder if u should really stay on in ocs... oh btw i dio the most siong wing in ocs... alpha... kns... my wing commander is commando one lor... hahaha anyways, its really testing ur will power to stay on in ocs... which someone from my plt did not managed to do... he went AWOL (absent without official leave) aka run away from camp... 1st time in ocs history... yeah so he went to DB for 1 day la... now OOC le... haiz... now u noe how tough the training is huh...

then came the emotional part... maybe im just thinking too much yeah... but i think its gonna be more or less answered by tonight... im more or less prepared for the worst case scenario la... so later who wanna go DRINKING!!! hahaha yeah n there was parents visit on the 1st oct... 2nd week into ocs.. i actually cried when i saw my parents... :( haha it was an emotional time for me... n they really gave me lotsa lotsa support telling me the suffering is all worth it and to pull thru the whole course... i felt much better after crying thou... all those bottled up feelings just all out... makes it so much better for myself... the whole time i have been going thru a roller coaster ride of emotions... ups and downs... when theres lotsa admin time, my mind starts to play mind games... tts when i actually feel damn low... n when the training is fun i feel good... so its really a trying period for me then... so after tt i went to show my parents around the whole place... damn nice view at the top of ocs tower... haha i'll post up the pics next time yeah... haha den when sending them off... it was another tear jerking time for me... yeah n now i kinda feel what gabriel CY told me... when the training gets really tough, u start to call ppl that u wanna confide in... =X yeah so i just wanna thank everyone who has been giving me the support i needed when i was at my darkest time yet... but im much much better now le... hahaha :D

oh well i just finished my 3d2n leadership field camp which started on wed... so we went to rambutan hill to stay for the camp... its a navigation course btw... so we had a compass each... so learnt abt the compass and pacing... den we had day campass test which was fucked up... the area was so damn uneven! slopes, holes, everything la! kns... luckily i passed the day test... :P then got nite compass test... so dark! luckily got moon tt nite... but still damn dark... passed as usual la.. hehe yeah den next day had operation hercules... something like sit test la... yeah i was the 2ic for the river crossing station... damn we onli managed to get some ppl across... so we kinda failed... but had the best plan by far... given more time we could have crossed la... n so we failed n had to all get wet... boots filled with water... sucks man... changed uniform never felt so good... hahaha but boots... haha luckily i brought spare insoles... smart hor! yeah den had nite navi... once again with fbo... the only wing tt did it with fbo la... haha den nite time had haze so we went back to wing line... haha all of us so happy... tot can slp well... so slept at midnite... den kena turnout at 1am... kns fucking sleepy la... yeah den had to change to fbo and kena tekan like fuck... camo on camo off etc... pour water on ourselves... den had to do some questions oso... shagged liao how to think sia! den had to casevec around the whole safti... kns... damn heng no rifle n smoke grenade n thunderflash... hahaha cos we all return le... :P but still damn shagged... lug the damn stretcher with boon on top... damn shagged la... den after tt had some parade... n den had a section sharing session... give a talk on a subject for 5 mins... kns... all sleeping la... hahaha oh well so i onli had less than 5 hrs slp in 3 days... kns... den had lotsa admin time... i spent it doing equipment cleaning... others went to slp... fuck sia... hahaha den had lotsa crap like area cleaning, swim etc... den BOOKOUT!!! hahaha so happy! hahaha so went home n unpacked... den went to bai bai.... den to bedok to massage... damn shiok... slp like pig oso... hahaha so went home n slp... woke up at 12+... slp never felt this good! WAHAHAHA!