You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You haven't been feeling that great lately. Both physically and mentally you are exhausted. To your best friends, those who know you and love you, it shows. Your self esteem has been reduced almost to a minimum and in order to recover - and recover you will - it is necessary that you get away from it all, even if it be only for a few days.
You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.
Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.
Since in the recent past all of your hopes and aspirations have been denied you, you are now convinced that the future will hold nothing but anxiety so therefore 'why bother?' You would love to get away from it all, to escape from the trials and tribulations of this mundane existence and fall into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, which will protect you from the lack of appreciation and give you the chance to start afresh.
haha quite true huh... i am feeling damn drained etc, not really anyone to turn to also... recent disappointments also, need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment etc... haha man... this really says it all... lol
HAHA yeah im blogging in camp again... lol n yea this kinda sums it all what im feeling rite now... having stiff neck, never slp well last nite so now damn sleepy... supposed to be studying for test but i cant get anything in rite now... i can forsee my sat being burnt for re-test... :S haiz... tts y im having the "why bother" attitude now huh... think im sacrificing my social life for ocs training... something which a person like me who treasures relationships more than anything cant really do... haiz... 4 more weeks till social nite... still no date... guess tab i gotta bring u along le lor... haha its gonna be held at ocs thou... haha no fancy hotel or wat not... k gotta go le... back to cramming for the test... haiz alpha standard passing mark is 85%... HOW SIA!!!???
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